Had a teams interview with three people today for a contract job. i don’t think it went well. I’m 6 days late on rent, already late on my electricity bill, about to be late on other bills, have a sliver of gas in my vehicle, and just spent some money on groceries that might get me through the week.

On monday, I’ll be going to the social security administration because apparently being Bipolar-II qualifies as a disability. The big question is that if I do qualify for disability income, which might save or at least help me, since my family will no longer help me, does potentially getting disability income for my mental health mean I’m no longer able to work a real job again for the rest of my life? Is this what all the struggle has led me to?

what does that mean? well… it compels me to show you, dear reader, that I am serious about what I’ve been saying:

I’m immature for using a certain last name, but it’s the one i’ll always know the person by.

Not saying if or when, but starting to put my affairs in order, since i know that I’m likely circling the drain.

I’m halfway through a letter and some other things for this person. Right now I haven’t looked into how to password protect it, but I will. It’s an unfair ask of this person, but they’re the only one I trust, should things get to this point.